Jinkxx
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Post by Jinkxx on Jan 22, 2020 9:57:08 GMT
It's hard to think some people can't stand her when she's doing good as I can read! She loves animals and such and thinks about the world with the plastic and such! That's great!! I just don't understand the word 'contentious'. I've translated it but still doesn't make sense in my language.
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Post by ben545 on Jan 22, 2020 12:18:55 GMT
She causes arguments, that's what contentious means. She is constantly being accused of being racist even though she has plenty of Asian and black friends. I've just had a letter through the post. I've been summoned for jury service.
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Post by katy on Jan 31, 2020 17:39:55 GMT
My Mum has been referred for a scan on Tuesday to check for cancer cos she’s had symptoms of womb cancer. I’m feeling absolutely terrified but never felt more thankful for or lucky to have the NHS.
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Post by slapstick on Jan 31, 2020 18:09:50 GMT
My Mum has been referred for a scan on Tuesday to check for cancer cos she’s had symptoms of womb cancer. I’m feeling absolutely terrified but never felt more thankful for or lucky to have the NHS. Hopefully it'll be false alarm, although I know damn well what a terrifying experience it is to have worrying symptoms. It's indescribable how panicked one can get over such things, for me, due to a dismissive doctor (who then randomly died), and another clueless young doctor who put me on the "non-urgent" ultrasound list, I had to endure quite a number of months of absolute torture, luckily it all turned out non-serious, but I could've been in a real mess if it wasn't. Despite that I'm a fierce proponent of a public healthcare, because nobody deserves to not be able to seek medical services, it feels as essential as food and shelter. Anyway, from my perspective, I was just as worried (if not more) about how my death would affect others, as I was afraid of consequences for me, so try to keep that in mind when you'll be with your mom, she's probably gonna be damn worried about how you kids are going to handle it, hence try to be reassuring, maybe
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Post by katy on Jan 31, 2020 20:06:32 GMT
My Mum has been referred for a scan on Tuesday to check for cancer cos she’s had symptoms of womb cancer. I’m feeling absolutely terrified but never felt more thankful for or lucky to have the NHS. Hopefully it'll be false alarm, although I know damn well what a terrifying experience it is to have worrying symptoms. It's indescribable how panicked one can get over such things, for me, due to a dismissive doctor (who then randomly died), and another clueless young doctor who put me on the "non-urgent" ultrasound list, I had to endure quite a number of months of absolute torture, luckily it all turned out non-serious, but I could've been in a real mess if it wasn't. Despite that I'm a fierce proponent of a public healthcare, because nobody deserves to not be able to seek medical services, it feels as essential as food and shelter. Anyway, from my perspective, I was just as worried (if not more) about how my death would affect others, as I was afraid of consequences for me, so try to keep that in mind when you'll be with your mom, she's probably gonna be damn worried about how you kids are going to handle it, hence try to be reassuring, maybe That’s horrible yours dragged on so long! Luckily her docs have been really good and as she’s over 55 she’s deemed high risk so the scan had to happen within a fortnight. Definitely. I’m telling her it’ll be nothing whilst scared myself ha. I guess when people hear ‘cancer’ it’s just panic mode.
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Post by slapstick on Jan 31, 2020 21:01:28 GMT
Hopefully it'll be false alarm, although I know damn well what a terrifying experience it is to have worrying symptoms. It's indescribable how panicked one can get over such things, for me, due to a dismissive doctor (who then randomly died), and another clueless young doctor who put me on the "non-urgent" ultrasound list, I had to endure quite a number of months of absolute torture, luckily it all turned out non-serious, but I could've been in a real mess if it wasn't. Despite that I'm a fierce proponent of a public healthcare, because nobody deserves to not be able to seek medical services, it feels as essential as food and shelter. Anyway, from my perspective, I was just as worried (if not more) about how my death would affect others, as I was afraid of consequences for me, so try to keep that in mind when you'll be with your mom, she's probably gonna be damn worried about how you kids are going to handle it, hence try to be reassuring, maybe That’s horrible yours dragged on so long! Luckily her docs have been really good and as she’s over 55 she’s deemed high risk so the scan had to happen within a fortnight. Definitely. I’m telling her it’ll be nothing whilst scared myself ha. I guess when people hear ‘cancer’ it’s just panic mode. With me it wasn't even the "cancer" word, it was the strangest painful symptoms, coupled with a few that were of psychological origin after I freaked out. The first doc gave me the "go play the piano" treatment, and by the time I decided that its not getting any better she already passed away. The second doc was as fresh as one can be, and just kept repeating "I've no idea, so I'm just gonna send you forward to somewhere" and something about me being young, yadayadayada, so he put me on a two month wait list.. I was imagining my own funeral by the time that damn diagnostics day came around. Now that I'm older and more experienced, I would've demanded to be put on a quicker lane for checkup, if not else for my own sanity, because it damn nearly left me with PTSD.
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Post by katy on Jan 31, 2020 21:12:51 GMT
That’s horrible yours dragged on so long! Luckily her docs have been really good and as she’s over 55 she’s deemed high risk so the scan had to happen within a fortnight. Definitely. I’m telling her it’ll be nothing whilst scared myself ha. I guess when people hear ‘cancer’ it’s just panic mode. With me it wasn't even the "cancer" word, it was the strangest painful symptoms, coupled with a few that were of psychological origin after I freaked out. The first doc gave me the "go play the piano" treatment, and by the time I decided that its not getting any better she already passed away. The second doc was as fresh as one can be, and just kept repeating "I've no idea, so I'm just gonna send you forward to somewhere" and something about me being young, yadayadayada, so he put me on a two month wait list.. I was imagining my own funeral by the time that damn diagnostics day came around. Now that I'm older and more experienced, I would've demanded to be put on a quicker lane for checkup, if not else for my own sanity, because it damn nearly left me with PTSD. Ergh that’s horrible, you know something isn’t right and nobody is listening. That’s the thing isn’t it the waiting - if you know what’s wrong at least you can start to (hopefully) do something about it but two months just in limbo
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Post by ben545 on Feb 1, 2020 18:51:11 GMT
Stressed out dealing with a confidence trickster at work today. Made what was already a stressful situation more stressful while trying to do three things at once. He didn't get any money out of me. Ha!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 2, 2020 9:39:34 GMT
Still in my adaption phase, but it's all good
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Post by Duwod on Feb 11, 2020 14:50:42 GMT
I‘m going through a hard time at the moment. I can‘t tell you everything about it but I am about to make one of the most important decision for my life. I am scared but I know now what I want and what makes me a happy person.
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Post by ben545 on Feb 12, 2020 17:53:57 GMT
I drank more than normal on my days off. Come the end of my working week I badly need a drink. In fact, if I didn't have my job to go to I might well have a drinking problem. Spent time with friends so that's good. Recently joined a WhatsApp group.
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Post by ben545 on Feb 13, 2020 20:38:44 GMT
Went to work today. First day back. Not too bad. I was tagging clothing for most of the day and correcting other people's mistakes and then back on the till in the afternoon. The till gets me down to be honest, it's way too boring.
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Post by ben545 on Feb 14, 2020 21:19:18 GMT
Just 2 more days of work and I can have a drink in peace. I feel like a very sad individual, like seriously. I don't smile very much and I've got nothing to be happy about. Maybe there is always someone worse off than myself and I am being ungrateful but that still doesn't change the fact I feel depressed.
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Post by ben545 on Feb 15, 2020 18:25:10 GMT
One more day of work to go. Really boring day at work today. Feeling lonely. If you're going through hell keep going as Winston Churchill said.
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Post by Jinkxx on Feb 16, 2020 9:23:30 GMT
ben545 Wish you wouldn't feel depressed so often.. But it's okay! I'm sort of proud of myself I went last night alone to a concert for the first time and it was from Halsey. My ticket flew away since it was storming in Amsterdam so I got a little panic attack because it immediatly was gone so far away, I couldn't reach it anymore but then I thought clear and was like: Oh yeah the ticket is also in my app from Ticketmaster! So I went in, bought a drink and went to my seat. The people next to me weren't social so I wasn't either (otherwise you can chat a little with other fans). The show was really good so I enjoyed it!! Afterwards ordered another drink and went to my car and drove home! It's not that bad to do such things alone but you can't share it with someone, that's more the fact I'd rather go with someone. But anyway.. next up is Friday Feb 21th I go alone to Lana del Rey in Amsterdam since no one wanted to join again and Cologne for Avril will be alone too. But I'm proud I just went! I wanted to see her with or without someone. It didn't stop me that no one wanted to go with me
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