Hey guys
To anyone who cares.
It is really difficult for me. And it does suck so badly. I hate to do this. It's been a part of my life for 10 years.
But you have gotten the better of me.
I don't want to leave, and see speculation on why she left. So here i go..
There are so many people on this forum, in this fandom i love so much. You may not know it, but it is true.
Sam you are truly the greatest. Never ever change.
Min skandinaviske venn, Mads. Alt du ønsker her i livet, kan du klare! En flottere kar enn deg, er det få av.
Sarah your positive energy is to be envious of. The best italian there is. No doubt!
Creepy, Niki, Francy, Amy, Toni, Alex, Thyarchery, Stuntbrick, Dani, Caro, falling into history, and many many more. I'm not the greatest to remember names ...
After going back and forth in my mind, i have decided to leave the staff.
Many of you don't know it, but it does put you to the test as a human to be yelled at.
The internet is a complete ville place.
To be picked at. To get countless of private messages to bring you down, cynical posts towards you.
All because you have one thing in common. One thing that I've cherished so much, that i took on the volunteer task. To help run the forum i love so much. All because of a girl from a small town, Napanee.
But lately i have had dreaded to log in. To see those private message icon with a notification.
Many of you should think before you post.
As a staff, i have often given everyone the benefit of the doubt. No matter what you have thought.
It actually takes a bit to get to a point where one has to take action. To write that warning.
To constantly read negative loaded posts. It drains you. I have no desire to contribute to that.
There is no need to be an asskisser, but common. Some of you need a happy pill.
I am in as bad health as Avril. Or maybe even worse.
I know exactly how she has felt at times.
The list of symptoms often overlap.
Avril is not completely healed. But she has gotten up. She is out there. I'm not.
You may think, just shake it off and move on.
That's is a problem though. For me. Bandaids is, or was, the place i came to escape my pain.
I can't go outside, be with friends. Move on from the forum trolls.
Often i am bedridden. Thats why, i have been able to stay connected with bandaids at all hours of the day. Smartphones with internet. A blessing and a curse.
I've have taken breaks. Left my phone off.
But i keep coming back after a while.
Then it is draining me for the little life i can live. Again and again.
Head Above Water was an album i was really really looking forward to.
It was an era i was prepared to take on as a staff.
I have made forum blends and sliders to get the era off on the right foot.
Now, i don't know. The last month has supposed to be exciting.
Seeing updates and debate on rumors.
But it hasn't.
It has been a tocix mess.
A moderators hell.
Acting civil is no longer needed.
As long as it says 'administrator' on my profile, i can't share personal opinions without getting to hear why i shouldn't have my own ideas.
I don't want to justify my actions. Read the forum rules. Don't break them.
Remember that the members you respond to are people. Not a robot.
Because i won't go off on a bad note.
Signature of the week was so fun!
I even sent a prize to Alaska and California!!!
Thank you to everyone who participated in that! I miss those days.
I really enjoyed doing the annual Avril Lavigne Song Rating. So much i actually have made the one for 2019.
I've spent three of my birthdays making that for you guys
The Triavril Pursuit. The random quizzes. So fun. Maybe that was only me..?
The gallery hunt.
the gallery.
All the birthday threads. (I am sorry i haven't been able to follow up on that latley) i hope i made some smile
The Avril Bandaids Awards.
Thank you for voting me as member of the month January 2019.
Though, i felt like the other nominees should have gotten it!
Thank you to everyone who followed on BandaidsNews. That was me.
I will still be around, i guess.
We'll see what times bring.
But from now on, i will go back to my lurking days. Won't come on daily. Won't have to read ALL posts.
Be kind to my fellow staff mates.
Seriously LOVE those guys! Kudos!