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Post by Deleted on Jun 1, 2016 19:17:59 GMT
So I'm asexual and aromantic. X'D Unless you count fictional characters because I get crushes on those all the flipping time. This is one of the things I knew about myself since I was little. So I've happily never dated or anything. ouo In middle school I was in fact bullied both verbally and physically for being effeminate and liking feminine things. Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Avril Lavigne, and Sailor Moon were and still are some of my favorite things. The colors I like aren't traditional "boy" colors. I don't know if you guys remember the soundcloud clips of myself singing a few years back on here, but I freaking sound like a little girl (proudly a mezzo-soprano X'D). I guess moral of the story is... Always be yourself. People are going to bitter and hateful. But continue to be yourself reguardless. And you don't HAVE to label yourself. If you identify with one of the things and you want an easy way to communicate to people who you are if they ask, then go ahead. However, I personally always choose to be undefinable. Oh my God, I can't believe there's another asexual here! (But I'm not aromantic, I'm romantically attracted to guys.) That is so cool, yay! I'm not gay or bi or transgender, but I just came here to say that I support the LGBT community and this thread. Like Becky, I find people's stories interesting. And while people's sexuality is generally a non-issue to me, there are definitely some things that are difficult to understand. For example, the whole concept of transgenderism was a VERY steep learning curve for me, but thanks to some intelligent and rational explanations I eventually grasped it. Asexualism is also something I have trouble getting my head around, but I'm working on it. I guess some people just don't have sexual urges at all. "Different" isn't a word I like to use, but some poeple are just wired a certain way and that's that. And I find it really hard to wrap my head around the fact that most people actually do want to have sex, haha. I don't know, asexuality feels like the most natural thing to me, sex doesn't even exist in my head, in my Universe, if nobody reminded me of it I would never even think about it. It's that simple, really. I'm with you. I'm repulsed by the idea of sex, especially casual. I don't like it when songs or books reference it, for example. Like you, I can't wrap my head around that people actually do have it, but I understand that it's necessary for humans to survive. I don't plan in partaking in any of it, however. However I still feel attracted to females. I still develop crushes with my female classmates, but I make no attempt at advances. I just keep it in the back in my head that they're attractive, but I do not desire a relationship. I prefer to remain single. I identify as heterosexual, by the way.
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Post by Becky on Jun 1, 2016 19:42:54 GMT
I'm not gay but I find it interesting listening to other people's stories - there are things I don't quite understand (as I don't feel those things) such as non-binary, but I find it really fascinating hearing how people are different to me because I've known nothing else. What things are you refering to? And what culture are you embracing? If you don't mind sharing. I just see many posts about asexuality and being non-binary and I don't really understand it and it makes me feel quite ignorant. I'd be interested to find out more, but the people I've seen who are either asexual or non-binary say it's not their job to inform other people what it's like. Another thing I don't understand is how some non-binary people I've seen posting online are saying that they refuse to be put into a box and then label themselves anyway. It's just confused me is all, but I can completely understand not wanting to be labelled or to fit into a box. I have a friend who's asexual and she's tried explaining to me many times that sex is only romantic and it's hard to understand how you can not want to have sex but find it sweet and a way to be close to your partner. It's great how people see things so differently to one another. I also identify as transgender, specifically non-binary (which means that I don't identify as a man or a woman). If you're wondering how that's possible I'll try to explain it a little bit. I've always (since I was 4) known that I'm not a girl - I just never felt or thought of myself as one. Then when I started going through female puberty I felt more and more "yucky" and just generally very uncomfortable with my body (which is called gender dysphoria) because it was becoming more and more typically female. I hated (and still do) my chest the most. But if I imagine having a male body that gives me the same feelings of dysphoria. I still want to transition in some ways, just not in the ways that trans guys do. I want to go on low dose testosterone for a few months just so I can lower my voice to a more gender-neutral stage (only the change in your voice is permanent when you go on T, at least for the first year. If you stop, everything else goes back to normal.). I want to have a flat chest the most, so getting top surgery is the first thing I'm gonna do. I also wish I didn't have any genitals but that's impossible. So basically, I want to have a sort of a gender-neutral body. Of course, I'm just talking about myself, non-binary people are not all the same and some might feel differently than me. Ah that makes more sense to me now. Obviously I know it's not down to this, but do gender stereotypes play a part at all with being unhappy with the sex you're born as? Not wanting to be 'girly' or 'manly'. I hope this doesn't sound ignorant. I also identify as transgender, specifically non-binary (which means that I don't identify as a man or a woman). If you're wondering how that's possible I'll try to explain it a little bit. I've always (since I was 4) known that I'm not a girl - I just never felt or thought of myself as one. Then when I started going through female puberty I felt more and more "yucky" and just generally very uncomfortable with my body (which is called gender dysphoria) because it was becoming more and more typically female. I hated (and still do) my chest the most. But if I imagine having a male body that gives me the same feelings of dysphoria. I still want to transition in some ways, just not in the ways that trans guys do. I want to go on low dose testosterone for a few months just so I can lower my voice to a more gender-neutral stage (only the change in your voice is permanent when you go on T, at least for the first year. If you stop, everything else goes back to normal.). I want to have a flat chest the most, so getting top surgery is the first thing I'm gonna do. I also wish I didn't have any genitals but that's impossible. So basically, I want to have a sort of a gender-neutral body. Of course, I'm just talking about myself, non-binary people are not all the same and some might feel differently than me. Can I ask what pronouns you prefer to be called by? Do you prefer he or she, him or her? From my perspective, calling you "it" or "that" or even "them" would seem extremely rude. Maybe that's just a thing with the English language, I don't know. All I know is gender neutrality presents an issue for me when it comes to being polite. Yeah I really don't want to do it because of how rude it sounds. But if people want to be referred as 'it' or 'they' then that's absolutely cool. I just don't want to assume anyone's gender and offend anyone.
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Post by Light02 on Jun 1, 2016 21:12:25 GMT
What things are you refering to? And what culture are you embracing? If you don't mind sharing. I just see many posts about asexuality and being non-binary and I don't really understand it and it makes me feel quite ignorant. I'd be interested to find out more, but the people I've seen who are either asexual or non-binary say it's not their job to inform other people what it's like. Another thing I don't understand is how some non-binary people I've seen posting online are saying that they refuse to be put into a box and then label themselves anyway. It's just confused me is all, but I can completely understand not wanting to be labelled or to fit into a box. I have a friend who's asexual and she's tried explaining to me many times that sex is only romantic and it's hard to understand how you can not want to have sex but find it sweet and a way to be close to your partner. It's great how people see things so differently to one another. I also identify as transgender, specifically non-binary (which means that I don't identify as a man or a woman). If you're wondering how that's possible I'll try to explain it a little bit. I've always (since I was 4) known that I'm not a girl - I just never felt or thought of myself as one. Then when I started going through female puberty I felt more and more "yucky" and just generally very uncomfortable with my body (which is called gender dysphoria) because it was becoming more and more typically female. I hated (and still do) my chest the most. But if I imagine having a male body that gives me the same feelings of dysphoria. I still want to transition in some ways, just not in the ways that trans guys do. I want to go on low dose testosterone for a few months just so I can lower my voice to a more gender-neutral stage (only the change in your voice is permanent when you go on T, at least for the first year. If you stop, everything else goes back to normal.). I want to have a flat chest the most, so getting top surgery is the first thing I'm gonna do. I also wish I didn't have any genitals but that's impossible. So basically, I want to have a sort of a gender-neutral body. Of course, I'm just talking about myself, non-binary people are not all the same and some might feel differently than me. Ah that makes more sense to me now. Obviously I know it's not down to this, but do gender stereotypes play a part at all with being unhappy with the sex you're born as? Not wanting to be 'girly' or 'manly'. I hope this doesn't sound ignorant. Can I ask what pronouns you prefer to be called by? Do you prefer he or she, him or her? From my perspective, calling you "it" or "that" or even "them" would seem extremely rude. Maybe that's just a thing with the English language, I don't know. All I know is gender neutrality presents an issue for me when it comes to being polite. Yeah I really don't want to do it because of how rude it sounds. But if people want to be referred as 'it' or 'they' then that's absolutely cool. I just don't want to assume anyone's gender and offend anyone. (Sorry, I couldn't figure how to reply only to Becky.) Hm, that's a hard question. I think so but only to some degree. I don't really care about gender roles. I like both stereotypically feminine things, like dresses, ballet, and stereotypically masculine things, like metal music, motorcycles, masculine clothing, etc. What I don't like is being seen as a girl whenever I wear a dress, for example. I dread it when people tell me that I'm feminine. I still see myself as gender-neutral even when I wear a certain article of clothing or act in a way that's considered "feminine" or "masculine", so it actually surprises me and makes me feel horrible when I find out that others see me as a girl or girly, rather than the way I see myself. It's kind of similar to how I feel about my name. It's Sve (for short) and I told my best friend (who knows I'm trans*) that I really like it. She then mentioned that it's a very feminine sounding name, how could I like it? I then told her that I don't see it as feminine, I see it as gender-neutral because it's my name. I really don't know whether I'm explaining this well enough, I have some difficulties putting my thoughts into words, so sorry if this doesn't make sense!
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Post by In Wonderland on Jun 1, 2016 21:27:15 GMT
It's nice to see so many different sides, if i can call it that, from our members. No matter who you are and who you love shouldn't be a "bad" thing. You sexual preferences or non sexual. And the fact that you have to explain to others you meet why or how is so bad. I think this kind of psychology of humans is the most interesting, seeing most end up with someone. Personally i don't know what/who i am. And i think it's horrible to not know. I'm closing in on 20. All i can say for sure is that I'm not asexual. No matter if i like it or not, it is on my mind. But I've never felt anything for my fellow humans. Not a boy, or a girl. So seeing how you have been sure or had an idea of what your preferences was/is, I'm quite jealous of you! All i can say is you no matter what, should be proud of yourself. From straight, gay, transgender or what you might be. Only you can be you, and you have all rights to be so!
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Post by Deleted on Jun 1, 2016 21:40:46 GMT
It's real hard to describe unless you're someone who IS non-binary or asexual/aromantic. Like with anything, it's a spectrum more than it is black and white. It's deeper than you might think.... There's asexual people who only feel sexually attracted to people they're romantically in a relationship with. who are repulsed by sex (like myself...) who still have a sex drive and deal with that by themselves who have no sex drive at all
There's non-binary people who feel masculine but also like feminine things (and visa versa) who some days might feel more masculine and other days feel more feminine who don't feel like either gender and are something in between
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Post by TamyXD on Jun 1, 2016 22:39:27 GMT
Well, I guess I'm asexual, then xD I think I've known for a very long time but I've only actually started realizing one or two years ago, and reading what @t1spork , Light02 , and @blackstarghost wrote made me even more certain. I've never been in a relationship nor have I ever desired to be in one. And like the following quotes say: I find it really hard to wrap my head around the fact that most people actually do want to have sex, haha. I'm repulsed by the idea of sex [...] I can't wrap my head around that people actually do have it But even when I was younger (like 14 or so) I never, in any way, thought there was anything wrong with me or worried about the fact that all my friends started having boyfriends / girlfriends and I simply didn't and didn't even want to. I just always felt completely content with myself as to that, and I still do. Maybe that's why I never felt the need to sit down with my family and friends and go like "I'm asexual". To me that would be like saying "I'm human" lol. My parents and siblings know, though, but they're the only ones. But I am not hiding. Being asexual is just so natural to me that it's not even in my head that I might have to explain it to anyone. (I do, though, if asked ) However, I get a little annoyed when I tell someone about that and they're just like "well, you're still young, you still got loads of time, you probably just haven't met the right one yet" -.-
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Post by Amanda on Jun 1, 2016 23:31:34 GMT
It's nice to see so many different sides, if i can call it that, from our members. No matter who you are and who you love shouldn't be a "bad" thing. You sexual preferences or non sexual. And the fact that you have to explain to others you meet why or how is so bad. I think this kind of psychology of humans is the most interesting, seeing most end up with someone. Personally i don't know what/who i am. And i think it's horrible to not know. I'm closing in on 20. All i can say for sure is that I'm not asexual. No matter if i like it or not, it is on my mind. But I've never felt anything for my fellow humans. Not a boy, or a girl. So seeing how you have been sure or had an idea of what your preferences was/is, I'm quite jealous of you! All i can say is you no matter what, should be proud of yourself. From straight, gay, transgender or what you might be. Only you can be you, and you have all rights to be so! Very nicely said! And I think it's always very hard to know. I've never been 100% sure, but I think also that's because I've never wanted to be 100% sure since I did not follow along with the norm. And people are so different, I'm more like you, I don't fall in love easy or even crush easy, so I've barley found any human that I really love or crush on, while some people manage to fall in love with many people and even the worst (I feel so horrible for all gays who fall in love with straight friends, or the opposite way). For me to know it's mainly been imagination and just the way I find myself thinking, also when I decided to """"experiment""""( Ahhahaa gosh I hate that word) when I was 15, I became 99% certain that there clearly were things I did not wanna do with guys which I had no issues doing with a girl. I guess time will always tell!
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Post by Amanda on Jun 1, 2016 23:34:06 GMT
What things are you refering to? And what culture are you embracing? If you don't mind sharing. I just see many posts about asexuality and being non-binary and I don't really understand it and it makes me feel quite ignorant. I'd be interested to find out more, but the people I've seen who are either asexual or non-binary say it's not their job to inform other people what it's like. Another thing I don't understand is how some non-binary people I've seen posting online are saying that they refuse to be put into a box and then label themselves anyway. It's just confused me is all, but I can completely understand not wanting to be labelled or to fit into a box. I have a friend who's asexual and she's tried explaining to me many times that sex is only romantic and it's hard to understand how you can not want to have sex but find it sweet and a way to be close to your partner. It's great how people see things so differently to one another. I also identify as transgender, specifically non-binary (which means that I don't identify as a man or a woman). If you're wondering how that's possible I'll try to explain it a little bit. I've always (since I was 4) known that I'm not a girl - I just never felt or thought of myself as one. Then when I started going through female puberty I felt more and more "yucky" and just generally very uncomfortable with my body (which is called gender dysphoria) because it was becoming more and more typically female. I hated (and still do) my chest the most. But if I imagine having a male body that gives me the same feelings of dysphoria. I still want to transition in some ways, just not in the ways that trans guys do. I want to go on low dose testosterone for a few months just so I can lower my voice to a more gender-neutral stage (only the change in your voice is permanent when you go on T, at least for the first year. If you stop, everything else goes back to normal.). I want to have a flat chest the most, so getting top surgery is the first thing I'm gonna do. I also wish I didn't have any genitals but that's impossible. So basically, I want to have a sort of a gender-neutral body. Of course, I'm just talking about myself, non-binary people are not all the same and some might feel differently than me. Ah that makes more sense to me now. Obviously I know it's not down to this, but do gender stereotypes play a part at all with being unhappy with the sex you're born as? Not wanting to be 'girly' or 'manly'. I hope this doesn't sound ignorant. Can I ask what pronouns you prefer to be called by? Do you prefer he or she, him or her? From my perspective, calling you "it" or "that" or even "them" would seem extremely rude. Maybe that's just a thing with the English language, I don't know. All I know is gender neutrality presents an issue for me when it comes to being polite. Yeah I really don't want to do it because of how rude it sounds. But if people want to be referred as 'it' or 'they' then that's absolutely cool. I just don't want to assume anyone's gender and offend anyone. I think the people who say they are not there to educate just probably mean that they get asked a lot. I can see where they are coming from like I know transsexual friends who constantly get asked from strangers, and usually also rude questions that is very personal like what is between your legs etc. and they feel like an open book. But I can also assure you that there are many people out there who you are free to ask who like to educate And about categories. I would love a world without labels, and that's the goal I see for the world. That would be the best. But until we can skip labels I think labels is very important since it brings people together . Like people of the same label can connect and share struggles and share thoughts. That's just my guess on people who are against labels but also labels themself hope I'm making sense!
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Post by sam on Jun 1, 2016 23:39:10 GMT
Random thought I've had for a long time- but for us LGQBT folk, do you ever get the sense that while being part of LGQBT is more accepted now than it was back a few years ago, if you had a same sex partner would you be brave/confident enough to hold their hand in public etc? Honestly, if I had a boyfriend I'm not sure if I'd be able to do that. Part of it is low confidence anyway but it's mostly by everyone else around me- as you don't know how they will react.
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Post by Amanda on Jun 1, 2016 23:46:58 GMT
Random thought I've had for a long time- but for us LGQBT folk, do you ever get the sense that while being part of LGQBT is more accepted now than it was back a few years ago, if you had a same sex partner would you be brave/confident enough to hold their hand in public etc? Honestly, if I had a boyfriend I'm not sure if I'd be able to do that. Part of it is low confidence anyway but it's mostly by everyone else around me- as you don't know how they will react. I can surely feel that there is more accepted now than 10 years ago, but it's still not at the point where I would say people feel safe. Even couples who do hold hands say that they very often are afraid every moment and they do feel a bit insecure, I think it will take a whole lot of time til the society changes the views. I however feel that our generations, people under 30 right now, are far more accepting and that when we get kids, that generation hopefully will be even more accepting. Another issue I've seen is that many, specifically lesbians, who kiss in public can get comments from random guys saying "can I join" Etc. while I do understand they just fancy the girls hot or whatever (because of movies if you get what I mean, because movies of two girls are often addressed to straight men.), it must be so annoying to be open and wanting to show love for your partner if you'll get bothered any second. It happened on a. Club recently, two girls were kissing and they had to move around 10 times to avoid sloppy comments about inappropriate actions. A question for you who asked this then, if you are afraid of holding hands of a guy, what is it that you're most afraid of? Is it what people think, what people might do like physical, what people might say or all of it? Like is it a specific fear "we" have of people around us?
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Post by sam on Jun 1, 2016 23:57:05 GMT
Random thought I've had for a long time- but for us LGQBT folk, do you ever get the sense that while being part of LGQBT is more accepted now than it was back a few years ago, if you had a same sex partner would you be brave/confident enough to hold their hand in public etc? Honestly, if I had a boyfriend I'm not sure if I'd be able to do that. Part of it is low confidence anyway but it's mostly by everyone else around me- as you don't know how they will react. I can surely feel that there is more accepted now than 10 years ago, but it's still not at the point where I would say people feel safe. Even couples who do hold hands say that they very often are afraid every moment and they do feel a bit insecure, I think it will take a whole lot of time til the society changes the views. I however feel that our generations, people under 30 right now, are far more accepting and that when we get kids, that generation hopefully will be even more accepting. Another issue I've seen is that many, specifically lesbians, who kiss in public can get comments from random guys saying "can I join" Etc. while I do understand they just fancy the girls hot or whatever (because of movies if you get what I mean, because movies of two girls are often addressed to straight men.), it must be so annoying to be open and wanting to show love for your partner if you'll get bothered any second. It happened on a. Club recently, two girls were kissing and they had to move around 10 times to avoid sloppy comments about inappropriate actions. A question for you who asked this then, if you are afraid of holding hands of a guy, what is it that you're most afraid of? Is it what people think, what people might do like physical, what people might say or all of it? Like is it a specific fear "we" have of people around us?Sadly I'm afraid of everything that you mentioned- stuff like a lesbian couple kissing is a good example; I'm terrified of someone making a comment towards me, something physical or what they will say or think I don't think it is like a specific fear of strangers around me in a public place- but I do feel incredibly uncomfortable when I walk through town; if I notice people looking at me I'll walk faster to get out of their vision etc.. Being quite a shy and anxious person doesn't help with this kind of stuff
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Post by Amanda on Jun 2, 2016 0:06:47 GMT
I can surely feel that there is more accepted now than 10 years ago, but it's still not at the point where I would say people feel safe. Even couples who do hold hands say that they very often are afraid every moment and they do feel a bit insecure, I think it will take a whole lot of time til the society changes the views. I however feel that our generations, people under 30 right now, are far more accepting and that when we get kids, that generation hopefully will be even more accepting. Another issue I've seen is that many, specifically lesbians, who kiss in public can get comments from random guys saying "can I join" Etc. while I do understand they just fancy the girls hot or whatever (because of movies if you get what I mean, because movies of two girls are often addressed to straight men.), it must be so annoying to be open and wanting to show love for your partner if you'll get bothered any second. It happened on a. Club recently, two girls were kissing and they had to move around 10 times to avoid sloppy comments about inappropriate actions. A question for you who asked this then, if you are afraid of holding hands of a guy, what is it that you're most afraid of? Is it what people think, what people might do like physical, what people might say or all of it? Like is it a specific fear "we" have of people around us?Sadly I'm afraid of everything that you mentioned- stuff like a lesbian couple kissing is a good example; I'm terrified of someone making a comment towards me, something physical or what they will say or think I don't think it is like a specific fear of strangers around me in a public place- but I do feel incredibly uncomfortable when I walk through town; if I notice people looking at me I'll walk faster to get out of their vision etc.. Being quite a shy and anxious person doesn't help with this kind of stuff I guess I understand because for example My sister said that everytime she sees a gay couple she thinks "ok so you two have sex with each other". Like that's her first thought. Not that's a nice couple or what's their names or their hobbies, and she say this way of thinking is very normal because "for me that's not a normal common relationship" she said. And it's this kind of mindset that makes it all too uncomfortable, knowing that people stick their noses into others business
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Post by Mohican. on Jun 2, 2016 1:20:49 GMT
I also identify as transgender, specifically non-binary (which means that I don't identify as a man or a woman). If you're wondering how that's possible I'll try to explain it a little bit. I've always (since I was 4) known that I'm not a girl - I just never felt or thought of myself as one. Then when I started going through female puberty I felt more and more "yucky" and just generally very uncomfortable with my body (which is called gender dysphoria) because it was becoming more and more typically female. I hated (and still do) my chest the most. But if I imagine having a male body that gives me the same feelings of dysphoria. I still want to transition in some ways, just not in the ways that trans guys do. I want to go on low dose testosterone for a few months just so I can lower my voice to a more gender-neutral stage (only the change in your voice is permanent when you go on T, at least for the first year. If you stop, everything else goes back to normal.). I want to have a flat chest the most, so getting top surgery is the first thing I'm gonna do. I also wish I didn't have any genitals but that's impossible. So basically, I want to have a sort of a gender-neutral body. Of course, I'm just talking about myself, non-binary people are not all the same and some might feel differently than me. Can I ask what pronouns you prefer to be called by? Do you prefer he or she, him or her? From my perspective, calling you "it" or "that" or even "them" would seem extremely rude. Maybe that's just a thing with the English language, I don't know. All I know is gender neutrality presents an issue for me when it comes to being polite. Very good question indeed. I am kinda having the same 'troubles', not with myself obviously (I still identify as female), but the 'girl' I'm seeing is queer and therefor doesn't want to be addressed male or female. I can assure you it's not just a language thing, but an issue of society. Queer-Theories are on scene sinde the late 70s, but no one really cares about them and at the same time bringing new words into common language is a looooooong process. I can imagine that this will change, but it will only change when there is more acceptance, tolerance and regard. She indeed prefers to just be called by name. And if not by name, 'person'. Pretty awkward, but I have a phrase I often use, which is 'oh girl' (in german it's a bit different in its context, hard to translate it in its meaning actually). I use it when someone's exaggerating or over-doing something. She doesn't really get pissed when she's called 'girl', but I know she doesn't like it, so I'm trying, but habbits are hard to break. It's a tricky situation.
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Post by Mohican. on Jun 2, 2016 1:32:02 GMT
Random thought I've had for a long time- but for us LGQBT folk, do you ever get the sense that while being part of LGQBT is more accepted now than it was back a few years ago, if you had a same sex partner would you be brave/confident enough to hold their hand in public etc? Honestly, if I had a boyfriend I'm not sure if I'd be able to do that. Part of it is low confidence anyway but it's mostly by everyone else around me- as you don't know how they will react. Interesting. I don't feel uncomfortable in public, I do hate holding hands though. (Good that my person doesn't like it either, so that problem's solved.) It's a personal thing, but I don't like showing 'too' much affection in public. That's nothing to do with being gay or straight. I do kiss in public, if the moment's right, but I don't place my hands on the other to show everyone they belong to me. That's something that doesn't suit my soul, nor do I like it when other people do it. But like I said before: people still look. Even here in Berlin, and you'd say Berlin's one of the most open cities world-wide. Of course they can look, if they want to, I don't really care, but I've never really cared about what other people think of me or whether something I do is particulary right or wrong. I do understand that it's not easy for some people and I know that sometimes bad reactions can cause a lotta harm. You should believe more in yourself and care less about what other might think of what you say or do. But of course it also depends a lot on the other half, how open they are and how they wanna appear in public.
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Post by Avengium on Jun 2, 2016 3:01:30 GMT
Thank you Mohican. for creating this safe place for talking about gender topics and inner feelings. I'm not LGQBT but i support people who are LGQBT and i think people should be able to be whatever they actually are or whatever they want. So i support this thread too. (If i'm off-topic sorry, feel free to move or delete this post, maybe: Wall of Text incoming) Here in Spain (my country) i think there is no tradition of LGQBT. I think the younger generation has accepted LGQBT more actively, but older generations just passed by. Some of my friends are gays, and these are one of the most funny (among my friends) and with entertaining conversation. I'm very very shy in some cases to talk about this or other related topics. But because i know this topic is among friends i want to talk about me to give my opinion. Casually last weekend (late may) a female former friend told me in an audio in Whatsapp that she was "disappointed" by my "extremely self-consciousness" in topics of inner thoughts and inner feelings. And she concluded that after several years (more than 5 years at least) she don't know me at all, then, she don't want to see me or talk to me EVER. I'm sure that i'm heterosexual (but nothing is sure in this life, so i'm almost sure). I like girls. In many ways. But i have never being in a relationship. I like things that are: #1, of indifferent gender or that are the likeness of everyone, like chocolate, or sugar (everyone likes sugar, neurons loves sugar, everyone have neurons) and i like things that are: #2, supposedly for girls, like books (beautiful creatures), tv series (pretty little liars), singers (guess the singer), games (Kirby) and so on. I like things that: #3, apparently noone else like (some people are a little silly or ignorant) like googology or origami of sci-fi spaceships, or sci-fi books with weird alien biologies. For this things some people thinks i'm a freak. And i don't like things that are supposedly for boys like football, sports, muscles, strength, talk about girls in a consumeristic manner, motor, cars, brag about cars, i can't distingush some cars from others, for me is sooo boring. I like being a boy, and i like girls. I can't tell apart the beauty of a boy, i don't know, maybe he is handsome but i can't tell. I like girls mainly by her beauty. Wherever i see boys and girls, i watch the girls. When i first see a girl, i never think about sex in the first place, but i think about her hair or her face shape, or her clothes, (eyes are so tiny from a distance). I know the name for a lot of hairstyles, and when i see the hairstyle in the head i say the name, or clothes, or jewelry. For jewelry i love many different jewel that women wear (i only know the name in spanish i googletranslate in english): Torc: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TorcBangle (spanish: ajorca) thumbs2.ebaystatic.com/d/l225/m/my82DSLDZnxaDPBJTG7hOng.jpg . Ring-Bracelet (spanish: anillo-pulsera o pasamanos): s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/6e/c6/ae/6ec6ae5efbe67ff626a50765d2ee6576.jpgAnkle Bangle: s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/a0/78/1b/a0781b8626b2be4e5a0709cd6c0b5f57.jpgAnkle ring-bracelet: www.hiphopcloset.com/images/products/detail/Fancy_Silver_Anklet_JB2018RD21.jpgI don't want to wear jewelry or hairstyles, but i like the finished work on girls. The point of this is that when i talk to another man that i like the "Torc" in that girl arm, the man look at me with strangeness in his face "Torc? The first time in my life i hear this weird word!" and i say "is so girly, i love that Torc, she looks awesome with that Torc" and sometimes a girl know what i'm talking about. But this make me feel Awkward. I wonder myself, "is this good or bad?" is girly liking this things in girls like if i was girly too? Is this confussion more common among heterosexuals or among LGQBT? I hope i made a readable post, and i hope i made clear and understandable post.
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