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I really love Bandaids. Such a great place. This is the only forum I use and I really love talking with you guys. It's so good to see that there are Avril fans around the world and we can keep in touch with each other, ask whatever we would like to and tell our opinions. It is like a really big family or a big circle of friends. And last but not least, Bandaids is my first source for news. The only forum that I use since years. Thanks for this so great website and community, thank you for being here for us

LOL. So bad.
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----- CHEESY LONG story coming! -----

So as I mentioned, I really love this site. I am here since around 8-9 years. In the beginning, I was really quiet, I became active in the last 5 years. I always loved this community and I was really sad when the old site broke down, I missed it so much because of the great threads, discussions, reliable and fast news. It was so great when I found out it came back.

So the cheesy part.

You may realised that I post a lot nowadays, since Avril announced she's gonna release a new album this year. The thing is I had a baby in the end of last July Since my baby's birth, the world closed a lot of it's doors for me. I mean when you are with your friends or love, living in a relationship, or with your parents or just all alone, the world is a big big open place for you. You have free time when you can do whatever you want to. Having parties, visiting malls, going out to the park, jamming with your friends, draw at home, surfing on the Internet (Bandaids!), anything. I didn't realise how much free time is this until I had my baby boy Martin. 

You know, having a baby is a 24-h work. The hardest of it all. You must stay home, take care of him 0-24, whatever happens around you. I had a C-section, so it was even worse, I couldn't barely get out of bed for 6 weeks. You have those problems with breastfeeding (is your milk enough for your baby?) your baby cries all day and you don't know the reason, you have that big scar on the bottom of your belly, it hurts so much... so it is really hard, especially the first 3 months. After it comes another hard part. You still can't go out, because you have that adorable baby, who means the whole word to you. You don't even remember how it feels to sleep 3 hours in a row. Tired all day, no help from anyone, friends dissapeared, living their own live. And you still have your baby who needs you 0-24. You have your husband, who is working, meeting with people, going out from the house all day, talking to his friends in his workplace, anything. He's tired when he gets home. You have no news, nothing to talk about, only the diapers, the tiny clothes you baby have, what your baby did that day. So nothing new or interesting. You have to clean the house, make the dinner, take care of the baby, stand all night and be with him, and this circle goes on and on and on. You are only in your house, it doesn't matter what you do, it just keeps going. After some months you start feeling crazy because of the claustrophobia, you locked under the 4 walls and there is no escape or hope it ends.

No one to talk with, nothing to talk about, all alone with the same things happen again and again, no free time, no time for yourself AT ALL. People can't really imagine this until they have a baby - better for the dads, they have to work, they still can go out from the house and have some kind of social life. 

So yeah, I started to get crazy because of these things, but I had to sacrifise myself because of my son, he was the shining star of my days back then (and still). I had no life, I even forgot about this site, Avril Lavigne, all my hobbies, everything I had before I had Martin.

Then after these months, in the end of December I found that announcement from Avril. I was so hyped. I felt something lighted up in me, something that I was missing so much. I downloaded Tapatalk to my phone and started to use this site, Bandaids again. I was so glad. I found the people I remembered, blackstarghost, moonlight, Andrea, fallingintohistory, sliperslip and the others, I felt like I belong somewhere. I started to feel that I can talk something about that is not my baby. It was so great to see Avril being active in social media again, seeing the news, the lyrics, everything. It's so great to be here with you guys, talk with you, having discussions about Avril, playing games in the threads. I have never played these "Would you?" and other games here, but now when I play them, I feel like I am chatting with other people, I like reading what you like to do, what colour you love better and so on, because it makes the vision of going out and meet new people. It feels like the world opened for me again. I'm still locked in my house, even though it's easier, because now my baby crawls and climbs everywhere, he stands near the furnitures - but this generals other problems: he cries a lot because he always falls down, he ruins the whole house, toys everywhere, he takes apart and brokes everything, I always have to have my one eye on him. And he wokes up at night even more times, in every 1,5-2 hours.

The thing is Bandaids (and this community of course) helped me A LOT to get back in live again. When I awake at night, I surf on Bandaids, play games, try to tell my opinions. I am waiting for Avril's new music - maybe now you understand why I am waiting for it so much and feel so dissapointed that nothing happens for a month. This is the only place where I can live now, this is the only thing to hold on to - her tweets, the hope of getting something new - I really need something new, something fresh in my life, anything that changes my moments.

My son is everything for me, I give my heart fully to him every day and night, in every hour and I need some relaxation to turn the world off - and my this is Bandaids and Avril for me. 

Thank you guys for helping me through this hard time. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you. Sorry for posting so often, sorry for not being so understandable all time. All I know is I want to be here because you guys are all my friends and you are my barriers to get out from the grey weekdays again and again. Thank you, Bandaids, thank you for Avril, and every of you (okay now I started to cry haha ).

I love you all