ben545
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Post by ben545 on Jul 17, 2019 9:40:04 GMT
Still feel a bit stressed. Why are some people just assholes for no reason? I just don't understand that kind of behaviour these days. The trick is not to stoop to their level. Truth should prevail.
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Post by Erik on Jul 17, 2019 18:25:39 GMT
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ben545
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Post by ben545 on Jul 17, 2019 19:42:38 GMT
Feel a bit better. Awkward social situation has subsided.
One of my favourite quotes from Rihanna's Twitter feed: tough times don't last, tough people do.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jul 18, 2019 11:07:32 GMT
Am I abnormal? Does no-one else like a drink now and again? I honestly couldn't envisage life without alcohol. Anyway, I still feel terrible today. Had my parents come and visit me and I'm unable to eat anything at the moment. Just feel restless around them. Can't relax. Sweating profusely for no reason, hungry but I don't know what to eat. Tomorrow will be a better day I'm sure. Oh I like a drink once in a while but when they forbid alcohol I wouldn't have a problem with it tho. I don't like that hangover feel so I never have that, I know when I have to stop. Also I drink mostly a lot of water beside my alcoholic beverage. Otherwise is my mouth too sticky and I hate that so mostly after 2 glasses of alcohol I always drink a glass of water. A bit tipsy is enough for me, not that hangover thing I feel.... exhausted. Finally weekend after tomorrow and tomorrow will be a very busy busy day at work..
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ben545
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Post by ben545 on Jul 19, 2019 16:58:19 GMT
Am I abnormal? Does no-one else like a drink now and again? I honestly couldn't envisage life without alcohol. Anyway, I still feel terrible today. Had my parents come and visit me and I'm unable to eat anything at the moment. Just feel restless around them. Can't relax. Sweating profusely for no reason, hungry but I don't know what to eat. Tomorrow will be a better day I'm sure. Oh I like a drink once in a while but when they forbid alcohol I wouldn't have a problem with it tho. I don't like that hangover feel so I never have that, I know when I have to stop. Also I drink mostly a lot of water beside my alcoholic beverage. Otherwise is my mouth too sticky and I hate that so mostly after 2 glasses of alcohol I always drink a glass of water. A bit tipsy is enough for me, not that hangover thing I feel.... exhausted. Finally weekend after tomorrow and tomorrow will be a very busy busy day at work.. I worry that I come across as someone who doesn't care about anything but I only don't care about anything for two days a week when I get drunk. I was stressing over being invited to a group Facebook chat by my friend Abigail and the people on there are really abusive and horrible. Makes me appreciate this forum more because it is moderated and you don't have to put up with abusive, bigoted behaviour. I'm not sure I want to be Abigail's friend anymore judging by who she hangs out with.
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Jinkxx
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Post by Jinkxx on Jul 19, 2019 20:19:34 GMT
Oh I like a drink once in a while but when they forbid alcohol I wouldn't have a problem with it tho. I don't like that hangover feel so I never have that, I know when I have to stop. Also I drink mostly a lot of water beside my alcoholic beverage. Otherwise is my mouth too sticky and I hate that so mostly after 2 glasses of alcohol I always drink a glass of water. A bit tipsy is enough for me, not that hangover thing I feel.... exhausted. Finally weekend after tomorrow and tomorrow will be a very busy busy day at work.. I worry that I come across as someone who doesn't care about anything but I only don't care about anything for two days a week when I get drunk. I was stressing over being invited to a group Facebook chat by my friend Abigail and the people on there are really abusive and horrible. Makes me appreciate this forum more because it is moderated and you don't have to put up with abusive, bigoted behaviour. I'm not sure I want to be Abigail's friend anymore judging by who she hangs out with. Oh no not at all, I don’t think you don’t care! From what i’ve read you also care about your manager or boss and such! It’s okay to let loose every now and then Chats can be horrible tho.. it’s always different when you speak to someone in real life or just digital.. things can feel offended when that sometimes isn’t the case. It’s just weird xD I’m also glad here we’re all kind and also respect eachothers opinion!
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Post by katy on Jul 23, 2019 17:04:55 GMT
Wonderful. Glorious weather in the U.K., the (original) lion king soundtrack on. Lovely.
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Post by RockBitch on Jul 24, 2019 12:51:50 GMT
Sorry guys, I had the flu with fever!! I'm feeling a bit better now, but i'm not just there yet... did you miss me
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Post by Uncle Bob on Jul 24, 2019 13:50:22 GMT
Sorry guys, I had the flu with fever!! I'm feeling a bit better now, but i'm not just there yet... did you miss me Just thought you were busy with that "motherhood" job you've got happening. Funny thing about that job is, it's a full time job with no paycheck, no benefits, no sick days, no vacation time and you can't quit. Yet, most moms will say that it's the best job in the world.
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Post by RockBitch on Jul 25, 2019 20:00:37 GMT
Sorry guys, I had the flu with fever!! I'm feeling a bit better now, but i'm not just there yet... did you miss me Just thought you were busy with that "motherhood" job you've got happening. Funny thing about that job is, it's a full time job with no paycheck, no benefits, no sick days, no vacation time and you can't quit. Yet, most moms will say that it's the best job in the world. Yep, you are very very right! And I think I was longer away than I thougt.. But sometimes even mom's are very sick, and there's body just say: NO girl, Stop right there.. and that happend to me!! Luckely I have my mom and daycare and a boyfriend who were helping me out..!! Normaly I keep pushing myself to get on! But no, I really was to sick.. But I'm better now, and the day was filled with spending time with my son!!! And it's really the best job in the world!
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Post by Jinkxx on Jul 26, 2019 12:58:52 GMT
Glad you're feeling better RockBitch I feel quite alright! Tho the weather is extremely hot in Holland it makes me happy it's summer! My body isn't summer proof but it's too hot to cover everything. Plus there are always people who's bodies also aren't summer proof! Looking forward to monday since I have the day off then because I have to work also saturday and sunday!
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Post by ben545 on Jul 29, 2019 19:07:59 GMT
Really struggling today to not go out and buy some cannabis on my day off. I love everything about cannabis. Some people can't stand the smell or it makes them paranoid and they don't like it. I love the smell of cannabis, I feel more paranoid when I don't smoke it. I love going to visit my dealer who is always in a jolly mood as if he has the best job in the world. I love all the rastafarian culture that comes along with my rasta dealer. I love getting my bag of weed back home, putting it in the grinder and grinding it up so it all fluffs up and seems to double in size. I love loading up a pipe and smoking it and waiting for the slow onset of being stoned to take effect. Then when I'm stoned it feels like a life enhancing experience. Life feels better stoned. I love doing anything stoned, it makes me happy. I don't feel lonely or needy in any way. I just feel satisfied and happy. I can go out on my bike and sit in the park watching the world go by or watch TV at home. I can do anything and I'm happy and thankful for the free time I have away from work but unfortunately I've had to give all of that up.... Yep! It's illegal and condemned by society so I have to give it up. It funds crime and unfortunately there's probably some poor bastard somewhere who is the victim of some kind of violent crime in the process of the stuff being grown and transported to my dealer. There's always some opportunistic asshole who is prepared to commit a violent crime to secure possession of the drug or the proceeds of the drug so I have to abstain. That's the only real reason I have decided to quit. For humanitarian reasons so I can have a clear conscience that I am not harming anyone by funding crime. But, hell yeah. It's tough not letting myself smoke it anymore. It feels like a great loss and I have been dealing with that loss today...I miss it dearly. Hope I haven't bored you all.
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Post by slapstick on Jul 29, 2019 20:58:22 GMT
Really struggling today to not go out and buy some cannabis on my day off. I love everything about cannabis. Some people can't stand the smell or it makes them paranoid and they don't like it. I love the smell of cannabis, I feel more paranoid when I don't smoke it. I love going to visit my dealer who is always in a jolly mood as if he has the best job in the world. I love all the rastafarian culture that comes along with my rasta dealer. I love getting my bag of weed back home, putting it in the grinder and grinding it up so it all fluffs up and seems to double in size. I love loading up a pipe and smoking it and waiting for the slow onset of being stoned to take effect. Then when I'm stoned it feels like a life enhancing experience. Life feels better stoned. I love doing anything stoned, it makes me happy. I don't feel lonely or needy in any way. I just feel satisfied and happy. I can go out on my bike and sit in the park watching the world go by or watch TV at home. I can do anything and I'm happy and thankful for the free time I have away from work but unfortunately I've had to give all of that up.... Yep! It's illegal and condemned by society so I have to give it up. It funds crime and unfortunately there's probably some poor bastard somewhere who is the victim of some kind of violent crime in the process of the stuff being grown and transported to my dealer. There's always some opportunistic asshole who is prepared to commit a violent crime to secure possession of the drug or the proceeds of the drug so I have to abstain. That's the only real reason I have decided to quit. For humanitarian reasons so I can have a clear conscience that I am not harming anyone by funding crime. But, hell yeah. It's tough not letting myself smoke it anymore. It feels like a great loss and I have been dealing with that loss today...I miss it dearly. Hope I haven't bored you all. I don't know if this makes it worse or easier, but there's whole 'legal' crime rackets involved in the production of chocolate, certain fruits, petroleum products, clothing, electronics, etc. People get enslaved, robbed, injured, and even killed by these industries.
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ben545
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Post by ben545 on Jul 30, 2019 5:43:08 GMT
Really struggling today to not go out and buy some cannabis on my day off. I love everything about cannabis. Some people can't stand the smell or it makes them paranoid and they don't like it. I love the smell of cannabis, I feel more paranoid when I don't smoke it. I love going to visit my dealer who is always in a jolly mood as if he has the best job in the world. I love all the rastafarian culture that comes along with my rasta dealer. I love getting my bag of weed back home, putting it in the grinder and grinding it up so it all fluffs up and seems to double in size. I love loading up a pipe and smoking it and waiting for the slow onset of being stoned to take effect. Then when I'm stoned it feels like a life enhancing experience. Life feels better stoned. I love doing anything stoned, it makes me happy. I don't feel lonely or needy in any way. I just feel satisfied and happy. I can go out on my bike and sit in the park watching the world go by or watch TV at home. I can do anything and I'm happy and thankful for the free time I have away from work but unfortunately I've had to give all of that up.... Yep! It's illegal and condemned by society so I have to give it up. It funds crime and unfortunately there's probably some poor bastard somewhere who is the victim of some kind of violent crime in the process of the stuff being grown and transported to my dealer. There's always some opportunistic asshole who is prepared to commit a violent crime to secure possession of the drug or the proceeds of the drug so I have to abstain. That's the only real reason I have decided to quit. For humanitarian reasons so I can have a clear conscience that I am not harming anyone by funding crime. But, hell yeah. It's tough not letting myself smoke it anymore. It feels like a great loss and I have been dealing with that loss today...I miss it dearly. Hope I haven't bored you all. I don't know if this makes it worse or easier, but there's whole 'legal' crime rackets involved in the production of chocolate, certain fruits, petroleum products, clothing, electronics, etc. People get enslaved, robbed, injured, and even killed by these industries. I know what you mean. It's like a circular argument, I can never think of a good reason to quit. All I know is it's illegal so I probably shouldn't do it. Besides, I don't like sneaking around trying to hide the smell from my neighbours or hide it from my parents. I think I'm just a bit ashamed of it and I want to quit. Also it is an addiction in many ways and quite hard to control and I want to break the habit and take back control of my life.
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Jinkxx
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Post by Jinkxx on Aug 5, 2019 18:30:06 GMT
Felt happy when I got home but my mind is taking over and now I feel miserable. Think I go to bed early, like now, to escape shit.
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