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Post by slapstick on Jan 24, 2021 20:39:59 GMT
This pandemic really doesn't let go . I'm putting my best effort not to get consumed by negativity as in spring, but some evenings you just get overwhelmed by everything.. On top of that I miss some things a whole lot, and I worry about a few people, and how they're doing, too.. a lot..
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Post by Deleted on Jan 24, 2021 20:46:14 GMT
I'm feeling.... okay I guess. Not sad, just okay
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Post by ben545 on Jan 24, 2021 23:30:14 GMT
I'm feeling pretty good. In fact I can't remember feeling so good about life...ever. I cannot stand the stress of my job and I don't care if everywhere is closed and I can't do anything or see friends, I don't have to go to work and for me that means everything. I've had this chance to concentrate on my health losing weight and getting into shape and I feel really healthy and happy right now.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jan 25, 2021 9:12:42 GMT
★Caro★ I hope you're feeling okay!! ben545 Amazing!! You did and still are doing so great this pandemic! Keep it up! I feel okay too. I came to the conclusion in a way this pandemic and the lockdown in Holland is good for me, yeah I miss friends and such but now people are not claiming me and since my job is very busy now is the case: work and afterwards being at home and for my mind that works now. It became too much before Corona to always be there for others and I went after work to friends and family to keep them happy and I was so there for them but not for myself so in a way I figured is this lockdown doing very well for me. I have therapy beside work and we came to the conclusion I wouldn't let myself relax, I get sick when I really feel relaxed. My body is always 'on' and even when I'm asleep I don't really rest (that's why my sleep routine sucks). So I have a lot of insight in myself and try to make things better for myself now!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 25, 2021 11:14:43 GMT
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Post by Falling Into History on Jan 26, 2021 3:17:51 GMT
VENTING - I'm just venting to vent. I recently moved across country alone, and I'm tired, and I'm doubting myself. And I just... need to vent. No replies needed.
A little annoyed with myself. I just need to go back to counseling. I can't wait until my car comes to NM so I can get my important documents and enroll.
I am extremely hard on myself, and was recently diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I literally just moved *across the country alone* for graduate school. Yet I feel like I'm doing nothing because I'm not working right now, and I'm admittedly procrastinating on my homework. I'm a little stressed with money because I'm not as financially secure as I would like personally. But also I feel like I'm fine because my rent is paid through May, my car and rental insurance is paid through, I have a couple small refunds coming in from my old apartment and Alaska insurance, and I will get a large tax refund because I claim 0 on my taxes. I do have savings but I'm not where I feel like I need to be because I save out of fear. It's annoying.
I'm literally okay. Why am I stressing myself out?? I'm far better off than I give myself credit for...
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Post by Deleted on Jan 26, 2021 5:39:51 GMT
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ben545
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Post by ben545 on Jan 26, 2021 8:11:15 GMT
Just woken up in the middle of the night worried about my financial future again. I may be able to take control of my weight and health but finding paid work and having financial security is beyond me.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 26, 2021 8:40:16 GMT
I hope things get better for you, Ben. Hang in there.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jan 26, 2021 12:34:22 GMT
I feel a bit anxious. My father is in the hospital today for a colon surgery. I haven't heard anything yet so he's still in the recovery room. He calls me when he's awake.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 27, 2021 2:35:26 GMT
I feel a bit anxious. My father is in the hospital today for a colon surgery. I haven't heard anything yet so he's still in the recovery room. He calls me when he's awake. I hope and pray he's ok. Please keep us all updated.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jan 28, 2021 12:11:32 GMT
I feel a bit anxious. My father is in the hospital today for a colon surgery. I haven't heard anything yet so he's still in the recovery room. He calls me when he's awake. I hope and pray he's ok. Please keep us all updated. Bad news... he has cancer but they don't know if it's good or bad but if it's good it can turn to bad.. so maybe chemo and a surgery will be neccessary but we don't know yet It's unreal. Next week there will be scan of his stomach and lungs to see if it has spread but I'm devastated.. tuesday I cried the whole afternoon and evening and I had a 2 hour phonecall with my dad. He doesn't feel sick tho so he even goes to work again this week (he has a car company with my brother). He's 71 and is turning 72 in May. I don't wanna loose him, we had too little time together to be happy together.. but he said: don't let this news ruin your day everyday cause we don't know things yet so I try to follow his advice but it sometimes pops up to mind when people ask me about it I get in tears immediately.
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Post by ben545 on Jan 28, 2021 13:08:37 GMT
I hope and pray he's ok. Please keep us all updated. Bad news... he has cancer but they don't know if it's good or bad but if it's good it can turn to bad.. so maybe chemo and a surgery will be neccessary but we don't know yet It's unreal. Next week there will be scan of his stomach and lungs to see if it has spread but I'm devastated.. tuesday I cried the whole afternoon and evening and I had a 2 hour phonecall with my dad. He doesn't feel sick tho so he even goes to work again this week (he has a car company with my brother). He's 71 and is turning 72 in May. I don't wanna loose him, we had too little time together to be happy together.. but he said: don't let this news ruin your day everyday cause we don't know things yet so I try to follow his advice but it sometimes pops up to mind when people ask me about it I get in tears immediately. Oh no, terrible news. He's right to try and stay positive but it must be devastating for you. My sympathies hopefully he will get better.
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