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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 12:43:51 GMT
Listening to Avril's music brought me joy. And then intense shame because I was called a poser by everyone (including my brother) when I displayed my folder of Avril pics (back and front cover) proudly. I listened to her music in my room through headphones. When I turned 18, I called her music my guilty pleasure. And indeed it was. Now that I turned 25, I don't see her as a guilty pleasure anymore. Now, it's just "music". Music that I denied myself and put and threw away like Barbie dolls.
Now that I'm 25, I can enjoy her music and sing in my head the songs I've always loved and made me happy. Yes, I only listen to her music through headphones (still) but at least I don't feel shame anymore. It will a long while until I can blast her music and feel totally comfortable. But it's a process! At least I don't feel shame. Yes, the fear is still there (being called a poser by everyone at school and then your own brother back at home) but I will one day get over it. Now, it just brings me pure joy and happiness when I listen to her music. Not shame.
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 12:33:10 GMT
A song about a mermaid.
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 12:32:22 GMT
When "Goodbye Lullaby" came I was 12 when I first heard Avril. It was on a school bus (it was cheaper than my mom taking me to school and I was not at the age where I could go to school by myself yet-she didn't trust me and cared for my protection) where the radio was always on, playing music. And I heard "Complicated". And I started looking through every magazine for a poster, article and picture of her. I started dressing in Tripp baggy pants, Converse shoes, t-shirts and sweaters with stars or skulls on them. If my mom hadn't said no, I would have worn the tie too The first album I actually bought with my own money was Avril Lavigne's "Let Go". But I tell everyone that I bought Evanescence's "Fallen". Why I do this, I'll get to right now. By 2004-2008, I started adding her pictures in folders (which I carried with me all through middle school to high school). People always bullied me (yes, that includes my brother too, back at home!). So everybody called me a poser each time they wanted to see my folder filled with pictures in the front and back cover. I listened to her in secret (through headphones instead of blasting her music). I admired her clothes and her beauty in secret, in my room. This was when "Under My Skin" was released. By the time "The Best Damn Thing" was released, I started to drift away from her. Mainly because my brother teased me by playing "Girlfriend" and saying, "Look, Crystal! She's so punk rawk! Wearing tube socks and a mini skirt! Singing about 'Hell yeah, I'm the motherfucking princess!' Look Crystal! Listen to it!". I fell in love and went back to her music when I heard "Alice". By the time "Goodbye Lullaby" was released and I saw the video for "Smile", I smiled and started crying happily. I'm 25 now (pagan and a goth girl) and I am just barely trying to get over my fear of being called a poser and feeling intense shame. Which brings me to the other thread "What does listening to Avril mean to you".
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 12:11:00 GMT
I kind of hope she does a mermaid song. I know it's so weird and not like her style at all but I hope so! :3 Hell, if she sings about Ariel from The Little Mermaid, that would make me just as happy! :3
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 0:58:55 GMT
Gahhhhhhhhhhh, thank you so much~!!!!!!!!!! <3 :'D
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 0:57:52 GMT
^ Made it through the fall
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 20, 2016 0:01:50 GMT
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 19, 2016 23:35:38 GMT
Avril Lavigne~Falling Fast
I can't stop repeating this song <3
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 19, 2016 8:07:10 GMT
Ego Likeness~Leave A Light On, Thomas
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 22:58:03 GMT
Lana Del Rey~F***ed My Way Up To The Top
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 16:24:26 GMT
Conjure
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 16:10:32 GMT
SPC ECO~Troubles Deep
First time listening to the new album. Sounds promising so far! (Never been let down by any new release by this band)
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 3:22:51 GMT
Thank you!
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 3:18:37 GMT
Thanks for the mention! :3 <3
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Post by Lesbian Princess on Apr 18, 2016 3:17:29 GMT
Kerli~All The Way
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