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Post by Sarah93 on Apr 19, 2018 17:44:19 GMT
To be perfectly honest with both of you I stopped smoking cannabis on my days off about 5 weeks ago. I've always kept this habit a secret on this site because I am ashamed of it. I stopped because I think the habit is selfish and funds crime and I want to be a better person than that. As a result I have been drinking more. I don't want to seek councilling as I think I can sort this habit out by myself. I have already started doing activities I gave up as a pothead like reading and playing computer games and watching movies to occupy my time but I am definitely drinking more. It's not a major problem, I think I can stay on top of it, and I am proud of myself for quitting the evil weed that used to keep me occupied when not working. I hope you can understand where I'm coming from and forgive me for my poor life choices in the past.Smoking cannabis is not selfish, it's just REALLY BAD for your health and you as a person in general. If you're drinking more, actually as you said before, you've been drinking all day long, it is a major problem. It's not always easy to find the will in yourself to quit something, sometimes even if you believe in yourself but find it hard to achieve what you want, it's even easier to give up and go back to your old habit. Seeking help doesn't make you a bad person nor should you feel ashamed of it. It is actually a really great thing to do. Even if you might think you don't need it, it's always helpful think about it This is a community (even if online) and one of the greatest things about communities is to be able to help each other 'cause if you ask for help, we're here for it, tho it's up to you weather to listen to us or not Beside you don't need our forgiveness nor are we judging you, we're just trying to help you be a better version of yourself as you first should do with yourself every day
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Post by ben545 on Apr 19, 2018 18:11:01 GMT
To be perfectly honest with both of you I stopped smoking cannabis on my days off about 5 weeks ago. I've always kept this habit a secret on this site because I am ashamed of it. I stopped because I think the habit is selfish and funds crime and I want to be a better person than that. As a result I have been drinking more. I don't want to seek councilling as I think I can sort this habit out by myself. I have already started doing activities I gave up as a pothead like reading and playing computer games and watching movies to occupy my time but I am definitely drinking more. It's not a major problem, I think I can stay on top of it, and I am proud of myself for quitting the evil weed that used to keep me occupied when not working. I hope you can understand where I'm coming from and forgive me for my poor life choices in the past.Smoking cannabis is not selfish, it's just REALLY BAD for your health and you as a person in general. If you're drinking more, actually as you said before, you've been drinking all day long, it is a major problem. It's not always easy to find the will in yourself to quit something, sometimes even if you believe in yourself but find it hard to achieve what you want, it's even easier to give up and go back to your old habit. Seeking help doesn't make you a bad person nor should you feel ashamed of it. It is actually a really great thing to do. Even if you might think you don't need it, it's always helpful think about it This is a community (even if online) and one of the greatest things about communities is to be able to help each other 'cause if you ask for help, we're here for it, tho it's up to you weather to listen to us or not Beside you don't need our forgiveness nor are we judging you, we're just trying to help you be a better version of yourself as you first should do with yourself every day Thanks Sarah, I appreciate your reply. Yes, health and general well being are other good reasons to stop smoking cannabis not too mention how expensive it is. The thing is I have 3 days off a week. If I only had 2 days off a week (like everyone else) I don't think my drinking would be an issue but getting drunk 3 times a week is just a bit too much. I'm fine when I'm back at work and don't feel the need to drink at all. Maybe I should just volunteer one more day a week for my own sake. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to reply!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 27, 2018 4:25:31 GMT
Anxiety can ultimately be rooted to the fear of the unknown. I guess that describes me. Like I get questions in my mind that I don't want an answer to. Sorta like how sometimes people wonder how or when they will die, but they don't want to know. Similar thing with me, except its with my friends and their lives.
Sometimes I give in and ask and receive an answer, sometimes it's what I expected, other times it's not. Sure I feel relief, but it skews my perspective forever and is mentally exhausting. It's not a good thing and I don't want to ever experience it again.
I can't let my anxiety control my life. I can't let a question destroy me. My anxious side is like, you have to know or you die! But I don't have to know if I don't want to.
A good friend of mine told me: "There are certain places in our minds that are dark and should be kept dark, it's actually better not to know most of the times." And she's right. To other's it won't affect them to know, but for me it'll destroy me. So I shouldn't know.
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Post by Sarah93 on Apr 27, 2018 6:52:24 GMT
Anxiety can ultimately be rooted to the fear of the unknown. I guess that describes me. Like I get questions in my mind that I don't want an answer to. Sorta like how sometimes people wonder how or when they will die, but they don't want to know. Similar thing with me, except its with my friends and their lives. Sometimes I give in and ask and receive an answer, sometimes it's what I expected, other times it's not. Sure I feel relief, but it skews my perspective forever and is mentally exhausting. It's not a good thing and I don't want to ever experience it again. I can't let my anxiety control my life. I can't let a question destroy me. My anxious side is like, you have to know or you die! But I don't have to know if I don't want to. A good friend of mine told me: "There are certain places in our minds that are dark and should be kept dark, it's actually better not to know most of the times." And she's right. To other's it won't affect them to know, but for me it'll destroy me. So I shouldn't know. Exactly You're strong, so don't give in
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Post by Deleted on Apr 27, 2018 8:37:12 GMT
I remember posting here about feeling like shit after this asshole cheated on me and I thought I almost lost my faith in love but you guys said some of the most supportive things to me and I remember one of you told me that time will heal everything and that I will regain my faith in love.... I'm feeling so much better now, and I think I've regained my faith in love... even it's just a bit. So, thank you so much guys
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Post by TheRaven on Apr 27, 2018 14:18:14 GMT
Tired. Less than a year and my constant answer to “how are you feeling?” is tired again. Exam on Monday, I keep procrastinating and putting of studying some chapters, I hope I’ll just get through that.
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Post by Sarah93 on Apr 27, 2018 14:20:34 GMT
Tired. Less than a year and my constant answer to “how are you feeling?” is tired again. Exam on Monday, I keep procrastinating and putting of studying some chapters, I hope I’ll just get through that. Procrastination has always been my biggest problem, so I understand you... good luck and I'm sure you'll pas
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Post by Uncle Bob on Apr 27, 2018 14:50:10 GMT
Tired. Less than a year and my constant answer to “how are you feeling?” is tired again. Exam on Monday, I keep procrastinating and putting of studying some chapters, I hope I’ll just get through that. Procrastination has always been my biggest problem, so I understand you... good luck and I'm sure you'll pas Don't be like me. My motto was, Don't put off until tomorrow what you can put off until the day after tomorrow. It did not serve me well.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 27, 2018 14:58:27 GMT
Tired. Less than a year and my constant answer to “how are you feeling?” is tired again. Exam on Monday, I keep procrastinating and putting of studying some chapters, I hope I’ll just get through that. Good luck with the studying and the exam. You can get through that!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 27, 2018 18:46:15 GMT
Anxiety can ultimately be rooted to the fear of the unknown. I guess that describes me. Like I get questions in my mind that I don't want an answer to. Sorta like how sometimes people wonder how or when they will die, but they don't want to know. Similar thing with me, except its with my friends and their lives. Sometimes I give in and ask and receive an answer, sometimes it's what I expected, other times it's not. Sure I feel relief, but it skews my perspective forever and is mentally exhausting. It's not a good thing and I don't want to ever experience it again. I can't let my anxiety control my life. I can't let a question destroy me. My anxious side is like, you have to know or you die! But I don't have to know if I don't want to. A good friend of mine told me: "There are certain places in our minds that are dark and should be kept dark, it's actually better not to know most of the times." And she's right. To other's it won't affect them to know, but for me it'll destroy me. So I shouldn't know. The unknown can be worrisome at times, but we also cannot do as much. Don't stress yourself over it, everything will be fine.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 28, 2018 0:36:27 GMT
Tired. Less than a year and my constant answer to “how are you feeling?” is tired again. Exam on Monday, I keep procrastinating and putting of studying some chapters, I hope I’ll just get through that. Procrastination has always been my biggest problem, so I understand you... good luck and I'm sure you'll pas We are probably the only people who procrastinate on procrastination
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Post by tubonjics1 on Apr 28, 2018 10:46:49 GMT
Tired. I haven't slept well in a long time. I'm going to get a sleep analysis done soon so hope that help.
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Post by ughvril on Apr 28, 2018 13:13:02 GMT
most people around me make me feel down
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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2018 9:10:00 GMT
Might be getting a bit anxious again, but I will defeat it.
I'm packaging up those dark thoughts, the anxiety of my friend's past, all the shit they've been thru, all those dark thoughts. My psychiatrist said that I should imagine packaging those thoughts up and putting them away, but I hope to instead one day shoot those thoughts to the fucking moon. I've done it before with my hypochondriasis, and I'll do it again with this shit.
I might need to avoid this site for a bit to avoid triggering my anxiety thru reading old posts and seeing... stuff. It's like a minefield. I guess I'll make a few last posts then put the domain in my router's block list (disabling my account won't do anything if I can just read as a guest) for a month or so.
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Post by TheRaven on Apr 30, 2018 14:15:12 GMT
anxious... 30 minute countdown to an exam
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