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Post by Panchali on Jul 2, 2020 18:39:52 GMT
Abigail has stayed at my house for three days and three nights now. The more time I spend with her the more convinced I am that she is a bit mad. Her diet just doesn't make any sense (vegan) and is making her ill. I'm quite convinced her diet is making her ill. She maintains views that most people would consider both racist and intolerant. I just can't make any sense of this woman. She wants to be my friend which is nice I suppose but she's just quite hard work a lot of the time and I am left wondering if I want anything to do with her at all. If she wasn't as physically attractive as she is I don't think I would want anything to do with her which makes me quite shallow I suppose. She's got really great legs. I don't know, I'm nothing special myself so maybe I don't mind the company. Arrrggh!! I think you have more feelings for her than you would like to admit. If you don’t like personality of a person, it’s still possible to dislike them even if they are drop dead gorgeous. If you really want a relationship, little things like opinions shouldn’t matter unless it’s massively against your belief system and you can’t deal with it. Any relationship will take a lot of work. I think you need to figure out what you want. I’m only saying this because I noticed you write about her a lot, so you must think about her constantly. Just think about how you would feel if she’s with someone else and not a part of your life. You may find an answer.
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Post by Panchali on Jul 3, 2020 14:10:00 GMT
Felt an earthquake today, again!
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Post by ben545 on Jul 3, 2020 23:47:26 GMT
Abby has been staying with me at my house again since Wednesday, she's going on Sunday.... Thanks for the advice Panchali and stay safe !!
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Post by ben545 on Jul 10, 2020 23:47:37 GMT
Again, Abby has been staying at my house since Wednesday and is going today, Saturday. As I explained to her I can't keep letting her stay here especially when I go back to work soon. She obviously enjoys my company but that's as far as it goes. I will miss her but it's not meant to be. Feeling a bit sad I suppose 😞
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Post by ben545 on Jul 12, 2020 20:31:08 GMT
Feeling ill. I can't let Abby stay at my house anymore. She has poor hygiene meaning I have to wash all her bedding when she visits. She uses this thing called a moon cup when she has her period claiming it's better than tampons and it just makes a disgusting mess which is why I have to wash her bedding. I don't know if she can't afford tampons or what but I can't put up with her leaking everywhere. She doesn't bath or shower and when she does she washes her hair with flour that doesn't get it clean. She doesn't wash her clothes which are often filthy. She doesn't use toothpaste when she brushes her teeth claiming it is made of dangerous chemicals so her teeth are never clean. Nobody in their right mind would put up with her behaviour and sadly I'm going to have to stop her coming round. It is with a heavy heart that I will have to tell her tomorrow that she is no longer welcome. She has had similar issues arise with my friend Steve Ajao which is why he no longer lets her stay at his either. Sorry for the long post but I need to get this off my chest.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 13, 2020 8:33:15 GMT
I've been having bad/weird dreams for the past three nights, then I wake up feeling like crap. I should start writing my dreams down on my blog or something.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jul 14, 2020 18:45:53 GMT
ben545 oh that’s not so nice! I always thought woman are extra alert in hygiene during their period. And it’s good you’re gonna tell her she’s not welcome.. I mean I know you like her but it’s your house and she can have a poor hygiene at her own place but not with you/by you. I hope you still can be friends if you like that! Good luck with telling her that cause that can be difficult! alloutofmycontrol maybe you can find a pattern in your dreams! I had the weirdest dream my boyfriend cheated on me and didn’t want to explain why and such and I saw him with another girl and well long story short I was so angry and sad I woke up breathing heavily and had cramps in my legs so I hadn’t slept that good. And since my back pain is only getting worse I have to go to the hospital. I might have rheumatism... I don’t sleep good cause of the pain. July 31 is the first option to see a docter so fingers crossed something will come out of that (I hope not rheumatism) but something I can do something about.
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 15, 2020 19:18:30 GMT
Just the only one fact made this day epic for me, nope I'd even prefer such a word as "a legendary" day — today (15.07.2020) is the Day, when Spotify finally became OFFICIALLY available here in Ukraine! 🎉🤘😜 #BetterLateThenNever
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Post by ben545 on Jul 19, 2020 9:47:35 GMT
Feeling a bit bored. Nice day, sunny weather.
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Post by ben545 on Jul 19, 2020 23:07:57 GMT
ben545 oh that’s not so nice! I always thought woman are extra alert in hygiene during their period. And it’s good you’re gonna tell her she’s not welcome.. I mean I know you like her but it’s your house and she can have a poor hygiene at her own place but not with you/by you. I hope you still can be friends if you like that! Good luck with telling her that cause that can be difficult! alloutofmycontrol maybe you can find a pattern in your dreams! I had the weirdest dream my boyfriend cheated on me and didn’t want to explain why and such and I saw him with another girl and well long story short I was so angry and sad I woke up breathing heavily and had cramps in my legs so I hadn’t slept that good. And since my back pain is only getting worse I have to go to the hospital. I might have rheumatism... I don’t sleep good cause of the pain. July 31 is the first option to see a docter so fingers crossed something will come out of that (I hope not rheumatism) but something I can do something about. I told Abigail that she can come around if she maintains good personal hygiene and she hasn't come back. I do miss her but realistically she was only ever going to be a friend. She's just so stubborn and set in her ways which are borderline insane that I don't think she will ever settle down with anyone. I'm still very fond of her and I hope we stay in touch. If she does find a boyfriend I will be happy for her.
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Post by Panchali on Jul 22, 2020 19:39:48 GMT
Feeling ill. I can't let Abby stay at my house anymore. She has poor hygiene meaning I have to wash all her bedding when she visits. She uses this thing called a moon cup when she has her period claiming it's better than tampons and it just makes a disgusting mess which is why I have to wash her bedding. I don't know if she can't afford tampons or what but I can't put up with her leaking everywhere. She doesn't bath or shower and when she does she washes her hair with flour that doesn't get it clean. She doesn't wash her clothes which are often filthy. She doesn't use toothpaste when she brushes her teeth claiming it is made of dangerous chemicals so her teeth are never clean. Nobody in their right mind would put up with her behaviour and sadly I'm going to have to stop her coming round. It is with a heavy heart that I will have to tell her tomorrow that she is no longer welcome. She has had similar issues arise with my friend Steve Ajao which is why he no longer lets her stay at his either. Sorry for the long post but I need to get this off my chest. Omg that’s bad. I thought people behave that ways when they are depressed or something. Especially when you are at someone else’s house, you are extra cautious. Period stains don’t come off that easily. If anything gets stained, I would sadly have to throw it away.
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Post by Panchali on Jul 22, 2020 19:39:58 GMT
I’m feeling sleepy but I don’t wanna sleep.
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Post by Jinkxx on Jul 24, 2020 11:13:11 GMT
Feeling quite okay. don't wanna complain about my back and the workload all the time so yesterday I came to know Taylor Swift dropped a new album by midnight and that made me happy. I'm always happy when one of my fave artists is dropping new music so I felt happy! Just listened to it once during work when I could while working but I really have to sit down and read the lyrics tho!
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Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2020 21:09:32 GMT
I'm feeling uncertain. I'm thinking of talking to my ex again because I have to admit that I miss him so much. He was actually the one who said it (that he misses me) first a few weeks ago. I tried to kind of ignore because I was scared that I will fall for him again. This is the ex that I had been having an on off relationship since 2016-2018. We haven't been together for about a year now, 2019 was the year where we didn't talk to each other. He had like 3 different girlfriends in 2019 but none of them worked out. He told me that one of those girlfriends of him made him really sad because he felt like it was perfect but he fucked it up. Honestly I was a bit jealous when he told me that but I tried to brush it off, but still it hurt me. He lives in Australia so it was a long distance relationship and I visited him twice in 2018, and we only got to spend a few hours together which was really sad. After the second time I visited him, we broke up because of the distance. Around June/the beginning of July he started to tell me that he misses me and started asking if I will ever come back to Australia again. I just said that I don't know because I don't want to give him any hope. And a week later I told him that I miss him too. I wish he would come here but he only said "I wish I could". Maybe he said that because of the quarantine and everything so he's feeling lonely, I don't know, maybe he doesn't even miss me anymore. But I truly miss him, still kinda wishing that we could get back even though I already know the ending, which will just end like our previous relationship.
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 25, 2020 15:23:51 GMT
I'm feeling uncertain. I'm thinking of talking to my ex again because I have to admit that I miss him so much. He was actually the one who said it (that he misses me) first a few weeks ago. I tried to kind of ignore because I was scared that I will fall for him again. This is the ex that I had been having an on off relationship since 2016-2018. We haven't been together for about a year now, 2019 was the year where we didn't talk to each other. He had like 3 different girlfriends in 2019 but none of them worked out. He told me that one of those girlfriends of him made him really sad because he felt like it was perfect but he fucked it up. Honestly I was a bit jealous when he told me that but I tried to brush it off, but still it hurt me. He lives in Australia so it was a long distance relationship and I visited him twice in 2018, and we only got to spend a few hours together which was really sad. After the second time I visited him, we broke up because of the distance. Around June/the beginning of July he started to tell me that he misses me and started asking if I will ever come back to Australia again. I just said that I don't know because I don't want to give him any hope. And a week later I told him that I miss him too. I wish he would come here but he only said "I wish I could". Maybe he said that because of the quarantine and everything so he's feeling lonely, I don't know, maybe he doesn't even miss me anymore. But I truly miss him, still kinda wishing that we could get back even though I already know the ending, which will just end like our previous relationship. Oh damn. Honestly this is really relatable to me. Wanna admit, that most important thing in such an occasion is to be faithful to yourself and to your ex. First of all, you should open up that you still miss him at all for real again I guess. You need a decent conversation about it - that is for sure. If those feelings are still mutual, everything is possible in this crazy world as well. Maybe, you will be available to live in the same place/country in the future as you for example already moved practically to another part of the world...
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