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Post by Deleted on Jul 25, 2020 16:55:46 GMT
I'm feeling uncertain. I'm thinking of talking to my ex again because I have to admit that I miss him so much. He was actually the one who said it (that he misses me) first a few weeks ago. I tried to kind of ignore because I was scared that I will fall for him again. This is the ex that I had been having an on off relationship since 2016-2018. We haven't been together for about a year now, 2019 was the year where we didn't talk to each other. He had like 3 different girlfriends in 2019 but none of them worked out. He told me that one of those girlfriends of him made him really sad because he felt like it was perfect but he fucked it up. Honestly I was a bit jealous when he told me that but I tried to brush it off, but still it hurt me. He lives in Australia so it was a long distance relationship and I visited him twice in 2018, and we only got to spend a few hours together which was really sad. After the second time I visited him, we broke up because of the distance. Around June/the beginning of July he started to tell me that he misses me and started asking if I will ever come back to Australia again. I just said that I don't know because I don't want to give him any hope. And a week later I told him that I miss him too. I wish he would come here but he only said "I wish I could". Maybe he said that because of the quarantine and everything so he's feeling lonely, I don't know, maybe he doesn't even miss me anymore. But I truly miss him, still kinda wishing that we could get back even though I already know the ending, which will just end like our previous relationship. Oh damn. Honestly this is really relatable to me. Wanna admit, that most important thing in such an occasion is to be faithful to yourself and to your ex. First of all, you should open up that you still miss him at all for real again I guess. You need a decent conversation about it - that is for sure. If those feelings are still mutual, everything is possible in this crazy world as well. Maybe, you will be available to live in the same place/country in the future as you for example already moved practically to another part of the world... I'm kinda scared that if I talk to him now he wouldn't have the same feeling anymore? That would be fucking suck lol. Also what if I say something wrong in the conversation that will eventually ruin our relationship? So many what ifs in my head lol. I think I could just go to Australia if I want to if there's no pandemic (but I think I can already do it now? idk), but i don't know, I have visited him twice and I think he should at least try to make an effort if he really wants to see me again. Not just saying that he misses me like 100 times, that doesn't really mean anything. I know that life is really hard right now and I didn't mean to sound like a bitch when I said that he should try to make an effort. But actions speak louder than words. And I would love to live in Australia to be with him, but I don't know what the future holds.
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Angry. Weโve worked a lot the last two weeks (we even had three or four days with 14h shifts...). We finally got back home yesterday just to see that his best friend is here. Surprise. Nobody knew. He actually took MY pillow to sleep on...?! I do feel like...wtf...i mean, we only have these two days off and his friend is probably not gonna leave before Monday morning...great... ๐
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 25, 2020 17:18:40 GMT
I'm kinda scared that if I talk to him now he wouldn't have the same feeling anymore? That would be fucking suck lol. Also what if I say something wrong in the conversation that will eventually ruin our relationship? So many what ifs in my head lol. I think I could just go to Australia if I want to if there's no pandemic (but I think I can already do it now? idk), but i don't know, I have visited him twice and I think he should at least try to make an effort if he really wants to see me again. Not just saying that he misses me like 100 times, that doesn't really mean anything. I know that life is really hard right now and I didn't mean to sound like a bitch when I said that he should try to make an effort. But actions speak louder than words. And I would love to live in Australia to be with him, but I don't know what the future holds. Absolutely agreed about actions. Actions are the real power that matters at all especially in comparing with just sweet words. And continuing talking about this statement lemme ask a question in this case tho - doesn't that guy wanna to visit you there in the U.K. also?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 25, 2020 17:38:44 GMT
I'm kinda scared that if I talk to him now he wouldn't have the same feeling anymore? That would be fucking suck lol. Also what if I say something wrong in the conversation that will eventually ruin our relationship? So many what ifs in my head lol. I think I could just go to Australia if I want to if there's no pandemic (but I think I can already do it now? idk), but i don't know, I have visited him twice and I think he should at least try to make an effort if he really wants to see me again. Not just saying that he misses me like 100 times, that doesn't really mean anything. I know that life is really hard right now and I didn't mean to sound like a bitch when I said that he should try to make an effort. But actions speak louder than words. And I would love to live in Australia to be with him, but I don't know what the future holds. Absolutely agreed about actions. Actions are the real power that matters at all especially in comparing with just sweet words. And continuing talking about this statement lemme ask a question in this case tho - doesn't that guy wanna to visit you there in the U.K. also? Last week (or a few weeks ago) I told him that I was gonna be in London on July 20th to spend a week for my birthday there, he responded with "I wish I could be there for you" and I said "I kinda wish you would come here" and he replied "I wish I could". Just like that, nothing really reassuring.
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Post by ben545 on Jul 25, 2020 17:51:42 GMT
I feel tired. My feet are aching. Really tough first week back at work. Horrible cleaning rota because of the virus. I have been too tired to go out to the pub. Abigail is going to visit me tomorrow. Hopefully she will have better personal hygiene this time.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2020 17:32:58 GMT
I'm thinking of deleting the instagram app from my phone and taking a break for a while
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Post by Panchali on Jul 26, 2020 19:00:28 GMT
Iโm bored.
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Post by Panchali on Jul 26, 2020 19:01:03 GMT
I'm thinking of deleting the instagram app from my phone and taking a break for a while I sometimes do that with WhatsApp. I got off all social media in 2018. Deleted Facebook, insta accounts. The best thing I have done in my entire life. I made an insta account again though but donโt follow anyone I know. Just for surfing.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2020 19:07:17 GMT
I'm thinking of deleting the instagram app from my phone and taking a break for a while I sometimes do that with WhatsApp. I got off all social media in 2018. Deleted Facebook, insta accounts. The best thing I have done in my entire life. I made an insta account again though but donโt follow anyone I know. Just for surfing. Yep, sometimes it's just necessary.
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 26, 2020 19:59:44 GMT
Yeah, you both are quite right about social medias - they eat your time so much and sometimes even your brain as well too. As for me - I'm feeling sad. Really nothing good happened in my life recently unfortunately
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Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2020 20:22:16 GMT
Yeah, you both are quite right about social medias - they eat your time so much and sometimes even your brain as well too. As for me - I'm feeling sad. Really nothing good happened in my life recently unfortunately I'm so sorry! I hope everything will be better for you soon, keep being strong, don't forget to breath!
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Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2020 20:24:38 GMT
I'm feeling quiet happy because I just got my new lipgloss from NARS (https://www.johnlewis.com/nars-lip-gloss/p3148944?,) and it looks so good on me. I'm kind of sick of always using matte liquid lipsticks because they dry out my lips and it's really annoying. I'm also waiting for my Fenty Beauty lipstick and my Shu Uemura powder foundation. It sucks that you can't buy Shu Uemura makeup in the UK anymore it's the only perfect powder foundation for me.
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 26, 2020 20:43:22 GMT
Yeah, you both are quite right about social medias - they eat your time so much and sometimes even your brain as well too. As for me - I'm feeling sad. Really nothing good happened in my life recently unfortunately I'm so sorry! I hope everything will be better for you soon, keep being strong, don't forget to breath!ย Oh thanks you so much! To be honest this made a huuuge smile on my current depression face exactly before going to bed. You're awesome hehe
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Post by UnderAlexSkin on Jul 26, 2020 20:46:08 GMT
And let's praise for more of your favourite Japanese cosmetics brends in the UK to be available there as soon as possible xD
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Post by Panchali on Jul 27, 2020 5:14:07 GMT
Yeah, you both are quite right about social medias - they eat your time so much and sometimes even your brain as well too. As for me - I'm feeling sad. Really nothing good happened in my life recently unfortunately ๐ค
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